| Change |
[29 Sep 2009|05:17pm] |
My boss today put in his 2 weeks notice. No one else seen it coming but me. I knew for MONTHS that it was going to happen. I was just waiting for it to happen. They were all in shock. Now Al(my boss) has in deed done a lot for the company and everyone is worried how things are going to be once he is gone.
Me I am not worried one bit. The past 2 years I have been doing more and more of what he would do day in and day out. I know I could easily step up and fill his shoes in the company. BUT they decided not to fill his position. This kinda upsets me. I bust my ass everyday and give an honest 8 hours each and everyday. I deserve to get a permotion. If in a couple month they decide to fill the spot I am going to make it well known that I want it.
My one concern is that they would end up putting another guy at work in charge of me. This guy can't even clean up after him self and half ass's everything he does. But no one in management thinks he is like this. They think that he is wonderful. I can't stand him one bit. He is a fully grown man and he can't be bothered to wipe the pee of the seat in the bathroom or even flush at times. Not to mention when you tell him to he looks at you like he knows nothing of it. GRRRRR
Time will only tell what is going to happen. One thing is for sure, if it doesn't go well I will be more then happy asking people "do you want fries with that" or " paper or plastic". Sure I would have to work 12 hour days 7 days a week.
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| Break down |
[18 Aug 2009|07:52pm] |
So after being $20 short on last months VA payment I received a letter in the mail yesterday that they wanted the full amount paid in full ASAP. 4 Months in and I came up $20 short and all bets were off. WTF. Now they said that I could continue to pay the normal monthly payment while I applied my debt management work sheet to them. This would be where I give them all of my financial information and then give them how much a month I would like to pay. They would either accept that or decline and the full amount would be needed right after.
I got on the phone today during lunch about this because being short $20 causes me to pay in full ASAP is a little anal. There was really no give with these people. So I broke down tonight when I got home and ask my dad if he would also co-sign on the loan I was trying to get. I didn't want to do that because I know he would be all into my stuff at that point. I don't want to owe him anything because I know he will throw it back at me later down the road.
So after an hour and half going over my finances with him he came to the decision that this loan would really get me out of the mess I am in. DUH! I wasn't doing it for fun. Then he said I needed to tighten down my belt. SO I went into well I kinda started that already when I canceled my health benefits at work and started selling of all kinds of my stuff for next to dirt cheap. He said well that I should also stop drinking soda and drink tap water. Yes it will cut down $30 a month but really? I am not in debt because of soda. He also said that from now on to save the $80 on food a month I would eat all meals with them. Again my food bill is very very low considering most people spend more then that in a week for food.
This is why going to my dad was a LAST RESORT! I couldn't even begin to describe how much pride I had to swallow just to ask him for help.
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[10 Aug 2009|06:06pm] |
So after over a year of trying to get a personal loan from my bank I am about this close (holds up fingers barely apart). I put in for 5,500.00 over 60 months. Not really all that much. I make that income in a couple short months.
The only thing I need now is additional house hold income. Umm ok?!?!?! I asked the lady what does that mean like a co-signer or something. She said it could be if I wanted to or income from another job I have or alimony. Sweet. Now to talk someone into co-signing with me.
This would take care of a couple problems and also cut my monthly debt payments in HALF! Plus new tiers for the car.
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| Pyrography |
[02 Aug 2009|08:48pm] |
So I been working hard on my art work. But there is part of me thinking that it's not good enough to put up on ebay. All I see in them are the defects. The flaws is all I see. It's rather a pain in the ass because everyone else who sees them are just amazed by them. I wish I could view them in that light.
So I reached out to some people who have been doing it for a long time. I joined a community where all they do is wood work. There were a few who did pyrography. I posted some of my work and have yet to hear anything back on it. Then I also reached out to someone on ebay. She had been selling her stuff for over 10 years now. I emailed her asking if she would take a look and tell me what she thought about it. I heard back from her and she said that she loved it and asked me how long I have been doing it.
That made me feel rather good about my art work. It validates it ya know? So now I just have to figure out what they are worth. I know what I would like to get for them but shouldn't I at least get something close to what they are worth? And how does one go about figuring something like that out? Where would you go to find out?
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| EEK |
[07 Jul 2009|10:07pm] |
Just found out that my brother last week got his heart stomped on. Turns out that his g/f(now ex) had been seeing someone else. After 6 1/2 years together she just starts seeing someone else. Ouch. I really don't know how long she was cheating or anything. But I know what that is like far too well.
My dad told me tonight about the break up and how he isn't taking it well. The last g/f he had was in high school and she broke up with him for no reason. Never got a reason from her she just ended the relationship. He took that one very badly. And rightfully so. It was his first relationship. No one ever takes the first break up well. But he went off the deep end and wanted to kill him self. I wasn't around for that time. I was in NC in the marines and didn't find out about that one till well after my brother was finished seeing a shrink about it.
So this time I am here and my dad asked me to watch out for him. He also wanted me to talk to him about it cause well that's all I know. All the g/f's I have been in a long term relationship have all cheated on me. The short term ones(2 of them)ended because 1 was messed up and the other had an attitude problem. But I don't really know what to say to my brother. It's like when it happens it doesn't matter what other people tell you, you just don't want to hear it and you don't care what they say.
I don't know.
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| Review |
[07 Jun 2009|11:39pm] |
I should be getting my yearly review this week at some point. It's 2 months over due and I have been buggin HR about it the whole time. She told me that it should be this week. I have some bombs to drop during it too. Like I am tiered of my one co-working leaving a trail of trash and just all around mess where ever he goes. I do not what him in my work space at all. And I am looked at as the asshole because I don't ask him to pick up after him self. He leaves something in my space for longer then a 1/2 hour I do not care I will move it out of my way. I been told several times I should ask before I move other peoples things. I don't think so. You get in my way, my work space and I will take matters in my own hands. If this gets me fired, then that is something I could live with.
I am also tiered of hearing that I have a communication problem when I see my boss all the damn time call people "dip shit", "numb nuts" and a whole bunch of other things. If I take a hit on that this year there will be hell.
One thing I am pissed at is there was an announcement last month that all raises were frozen for the next few months. Now I don't get my raise because my review is over due because all my co-works can't meet a deadline. That is the reason for the delay. One guy took a month after the due date to turn it in. I am pissed about that. Oh yea same guy was "put in charge" on Fri over me. I am next in line for my boss's job. What a joke.
Just getting ready tiered with the crap at work. I think it's time for me to only do what is given to me and not go above and beyond like I always do. Whats the point anymore?
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[19 May 2009|02:36am] |
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So yesterday was day one at half a pack a day. Man am I feeling it. Half the day I just wanted to rip peoples heads off roll them up and smoke it lol. I have noticed a slight change when I do smoke. Like my lungs feel on fire after going a while with out. But I am doing it and my 1/4 thing seems to be working for me. At this rate I should reach my goal a week before mid next month. I think the hardest part of this is still ahead. The first one of the day and when I drive I think is going to be a battle for me because it's more of the habit not the addiction. But then again they say it's not the addiction you have to beat because tobacco addiction is gone by the time you wake up from a full 8 hours nights sleep.
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[09 May 2009|02:33am] |
Ok so I am going to sound like a awful person for this but here goes.
Tonight I had yet another first date. But this one was not like the others. To start off she was not my type at all. She is 40, about 5'5" and 220 pounds. Not very good looking. Ok so this is what was going thru my head when I decided to ask her out. There was no way she would be a first date only. I thought it would have been fairly easy to get a second date with her. Boy was I wrong.
At the end of the night I asked if I could see her again and she told me no. She said that she didn't see it happening because I seemed far too good to be true. LMAO! What the hell kind of line is that? I was SHOCKED to say the least. Now I know that there is something about me that is driving all these girls away. There must be, how else would or could it be explained. Now If I could just put my finger on it and fix it.
On that note I have taken Stacey's advice and started to work on the things she said. I have cut way back on the bad fast food that I have been almost only eating. I also have cut back on how much I been taking in. For example I could easily put down a whole pizza+( mostly I would just keep eating till I was full) now I will have 1 or 2 slices. I have increased the amount I run. The past week I have been waking up an hour early to go for a run and I have been using my brothers weight bench.
And for the hard part. My smoking! I have also started to cut back to stop. I figure cold turkey would not work too well for me and the gum or patches would not work either. I have cut the amount by 1/4. I have been not too bad about that. After next week I will try 1/4 the 1/4. so from 20 a day I am at 15 and next week will be 10 a day. My goal is to stop mid next month.
I am really serious about finding someone. I feel kinda empty. It's like all my life is going to work and coming home to be alone day in and day out. Weekends are the worst because there is nada to do all day and I find my self wanting to just have the weekend over so I can go back to work. Get another job you say? I have been looking for a second job for the past 3 months now. Each place has told me they can't see me working a full time job and being able to give 100% 4 or 5 hours added on to that. WTF? Come on what do you think that high school kid is doing? 8 hours at school and doing 4 hours after school. Target, Mc=a=d's, Walmart. Kmart, Big Lots and Burger King have all turned me down. Still waiting to her back from Steward's
On the + side I have yet to come down with the swine flu. YAY because I always seem to get the weird shit.
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| Dating Frustration |
[26 Apr 2009|10:53pm] |
I am tiered of dating. What the hell is the point anymore. Clearly something is not right with either the girls I been seeing or myself. What is it where 1 date is about as far as I can get? The girls I have been seeing(not at the same time or anything) all seem to be well rounded down to earth girls. I have told each one about my dating past and how it never makes it past the first couple dates. Each of them has said that they are not like the others and they wouldn't just go out on a date and bail. But sadly they ALL do.
Sure I am not the most attractive guy out there. But I do have quality's that should make up for that right? I mean I am sweet, caring, easy going, trustworthy, intelligent, able to carry on a conversation.
All I want is someone willing to give me a fighting chance. It's so damn depressing to know you want to find someone to spend the rest of your life with, someone to marry, someone to have a family with, but can't even find someone to go on a second date. I am just overly tiered of the dating bull shit. Makes you just want to give up and come to grips that your going to be alone for the rest of your life. How sad.
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| Twilight |
[29 Mar 2009|03:39pm] |
I had a first date last night and I am on cloud 9. It was an out of the blue kind of thing. We planed to see each other on wends night but last night she asked me over. Of course I jumped on that idea. I was so flipping nervous going over there. I was shaking.
We watched Twilight and Nick and Norah's infinite play list. Both movies were AWESOME! Then we just sat there talking till 5am! I have never done that with anyone on a first date. I could listen to her talk forever. I was tripping over my words and studdering. I felt like a fool but she made me feel good. Something about her that screams hold on and don't screw it up.
There are a couple things about her that scares me. Like she has 5 kids. Thats intimidating. 1 boy and 4 girls. all 10 and under. She also doesn't eat meat. Well she says she gives in here and there but its mostly heath stuff. I don't know if i could handle that lol.
But all in all this were great. "...And so the lion fell in love with the lamb..."
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| No Luck |
[06 Jan 2009|05:17am] |
The bad luck keeps rolling on. 2:30ish I woke up screaming in pain. My lower back was killing me. I never felt this much pain before. Not even when I sprained my ankle to the point where the swelling dislocated everything in my ankle. Took me nearly an hour to get dress. All I needed to do was put on my pants.
After I was dressed I called down stairs to get some help getting to the ER room. My dad answered the phone. I said "dad I need a little help. I have to go to the ER, I'm in a lot of pain right now and can barely move." His reaction "well can you make it down stairs" Mine " I been trying to get downstairs for the past couple minutes I am nearly at the last step"
Get to the ER and the lady at the counter was a total BITCH! I am sure that the pain I was in I wasn't in the best of moods either. "and what is your problem tonight" She said it as if I went there often. All kinds of attitude. Asked all kinds of questions and had me sign the paper work.
The Doctor hardly did anything at all. No x-ray to see if maybe I slipped a disk. Just asked a couple questions and prescribed me some meds. I was in and out in about an hour or so. Most of that time was me walking from the waiting room to the examine room and back.
When checking out this other lady asked the first one(the bitch) If I had signed anything or if anything else was needed. She said with a total bitch attitude "Nope he didn't sign anything" I looked at her and said "Ok what ever lady I maybe in pain but I do know I signed that green sheet, what is your problem" I don't think my burst was uncalled for. Clearly this lady had issues and was being a bitch.
Anyways I am half tempted to just go to work. The meds are starting to kick in and I am feeling a little better. Not 100% better but to the point where I can move around. I just hope this string of bad luck ends soon before something really bad happens.
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| Crappy crpa crap weekend |
[04 Jan 2009|11:02pm] |
This weekend was all kinds of messed up. One thing after another went wrong. I will chalk it up to bad luck.
First my date with Nicole was canceled. She was having lunch with her grandmother for her 83rd b-day. She thought it was going to be earlier then what it ended up being. She didn't want to be driving in the dark in a strange place. Understandable 100%. I thought it would have been great having her come up here seeing that my brother is gone for the next 2 weeks. We would have had the big 50" TV to watch movies on with the surround sound. Oh well what can you do.
The next thing was I was brushing my teeth and looked out the window cause someone was making all kind of noise outside. I dropped my tooth bring in the toilet! Oh come on.
Then I thought might as well wash the car while I am out and about. There was a bunch of people there. Getting all the salt off the cars. I pull in as someone was pulling out so the guy in front of me goes into the stall. I'm next woopie! He gets out and starts talking on the phone while walking around. No big deal can't be on the phone too long. 10 mins go by. WTF. BEEP BEEP. A car behind me honks on the horn. Guy in the stall walks to the car and gets in and the pull away. What the hell is going on? Dude is gone and I am pissed. Could have at least said something. How rude!
Now here I am at the store picking up a new toothbrush. Go to swipe my card and "CRUNCH". The damn thing breaks right along the magnetic strip. Oh and what is this?? I have no cash on me. What the hell is going on? Not a thing going right.
Go to the bank to get cash and they close right as I walk up to the door. The lady goes "sorry we are closed come back monday morning." Gee that is going to help.
I think it was a good thing Nicole didn't come up. Just picture my bad luck with her around. Probably wouldn't have been the best of times.
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[22 Dec 2008|06:06am] |
I am really pissed even after sleeping on it. Yesterday morning around 10ish I woke up to hearing the living room TV on. The living room is not in the front. My room is in the back. With my door shut I shouldn't be able to hear what is going on in the living room at all.
I walk into the living room and ask my brother if he could turn it down a little. Looked at me for a second and asked why. I felt the rage build up right there. I in a calm manor said because it is louder then my TV and I shouldn't have to crank up my TV. He sat there just looking at me for a second as I was speaking Spanish.
Then later in the day he was going in and out the front door. No problem there you say? Well he was slamming the door each time. I was ready to flip my lid. I walk out there and look at him, look at the door and then open it and shut it with out any slam to it. He looked at me and said what was that for. I told him that I wanted to make sure that the door did in fact shut with out the need to slam it. Then I walked away.
3am rolls around and I am rudely woken to the sound of the vacuum. Turns out for some reason he was using the vacuum on the kitchen floor. Now take in mind that the floor is marble tiles. WTF are you doing? He again looked at me like I was freaking crazy. I asked him in a nice way could this wait until the morning? He said no because he can't sleep. LOL well neither can I with this going on.
Respect. Just a little is all I am looking for. It is really like I am a visitor here with him. Good thing that he mentioned that he will be moving out with in a year. Can I hold up and not go ape shit on him till then? Can I go that long with out killing him in his sleep? I think it is time once again to find me a special someone. That way I can spend time with her away from here or bring her here and make some noise.
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